On 19 jan 2011
At about 1.05pm, got a message from him.
Was pretty happy at first, but eventually I got a terrible breakdown.
He told me that he wanted to break up with me not because he have an affair with other girls, is just that he wished to be alone.
He wanted to concentrate on his business. With me by his side, he couldn't concentrate as everytime he would injured his fingers when he's doing his wood carving. And, even told me not to do anything stupid, I can still stayed at his house if i want. And see how things goes in future.
I told myself, this shouldn't be the only reason.
Plus, 20 jan 2011 is his birthday.
That moment, i think i was kinda being posessed. Wanted to buy him a birthday cake and a present to make him happy so that he could change his mind of not breaking up with me. So i asked Chuck to accompany me to go to Tampines one to buy the Bakerzin heart shaped cake and a black leather bracelet. Just wanted to thank him for his effort of accompanying me although I know that he still likes me.
So when i reached home, I just smoke like hell and cry my heart out.
Messaged him and asked him what time he would be back.
he told me that not so early.
So waited for him and while waiting i was on the phone, asking Chuck what to do.
I message again, asked him what time you will be back home.
he aked me you at home is it? i said yes.
He says not so early and asked me to go to sleep as the next day i am schooling.
I opened the door and saw him he was outside talking on to the phone. I was so angry.
Went to the toilet, stared at him and slammed the door.
he eavedropped his conversation.
what he was saying was all my fault. And say that all he does was to controlled me.
You tell me. If you didn't even tell to the person that you are in wrong, who will knows?
Dropping hints means that I would know that you are not happy with it?
BULL SHIT!!
He should know that I was stupid in this kind of things.
he don't even understand me at all.
i was inside crying, fearing what he's gonna do next.
the cake was in the fridge, present was on his laptop.
I lighted the candle, was supposed to celebrate it myself. But in the end, I didn't.
I heard his foodsteps, immediately i turned my face to the wall and was pretending that I wa sleeping.
He knew that i wasn't asleep. And patted on my shoulder, I moved away.
he pulled me to him and hugged me.
At that time, I cried like hell.
After that, i asked him. There should be other reasons.
he told me that I message to myself to lie to him in order that I could stayed by his side.
he cracked out the passcode of my phone and saw all the messages.
he said that I flirted. He said that is alright but don;t over do it.
he asked whether I flirted.
I kept on denying.
he said that he was supposed to give me another chance but in the end, i didn't even cherish it. forget it , it's over.
We still celebrate and he loved the bracelet.
he told me that he needed to get back his itouch and his keys.
After that, we slept together and he gave me his arm for me to hug.
The next day, it's like normal. But i was just devastated. Send him all those messages to try to change his mind. But in the end, he asked me to shut up , he just wanted to have a peaceful brithday. And even asked me not to go his house today.
My heart just turned sour. Went back home and cried.
I told my parents that we break off.
They told me not to cry, just forget this piece of shit.
On 27 jan 2011
I went to his house and take back all my belongings.
The maid helped me to take and hired a taxi for me.
I asked her not to tell uncle and aunty that we break off.
she nodded and sya goodbye to her.
She misses me and indeed i miss her.
And then, i lead a single life.
On 14 feb 2011
I went out with my brother to catch a movie.
After that went back home
On 24 feb 2011
That was the day of the cross country.
I already prepared myself and wanted to take a medal back home.
Was competing with college west.
When the horn was being horned, we ran.
I tripped and fall. Injured my knees and elbow.
That point of time was so upset and felt so wasted. All my efforts has been wasted!!
Was so painful. Thanks to Li juan, Chloe, Charlotte, xiao si, College west students for helping me. If not, i will be dead soon.
On 27 feb 2011
At about 11.35pm, I found out that I was having menses.
Told my mum, my mum was so glad.
But after a while, I was havig cramps.
it was getting so pain till i shouted for mum.
Mum say that it is normal but I just couldn't tolerate anymore.
I was getting breathless and in the end I went to west point hospital.
Was given three different types of painkillers. And i eat it.
Still painful and felt sour at my womb.
On 28 feb 2011
In the morning, went to Doctor lee polyclinic to see him.
He gave me just painkillers.
Blodd was beginning to bleed profusely. Don't have any appetite. And kept on vomitting. I went back to the clinic agian and see him. I suspect that is appentitis.
I got referral and needed to get to the hospital immediately.
So we went to NUH.
Do a urine test and is postive. I'm pregnant! 18 weeks( 5 months pregnant)
I was shocked and kept crying.
I was being referred to the guardian doctor and done a scan on my stomach.
The baby died inside my womb. I had a miscarriage.
I needed to get admitted inside the hospital.
Sent in at around 2 plus.
And i needed to diao shui in me. Got antibiotics and a liquid to let the baby dropped out itself.
three packs of it.
On 1 March 2011
At around 12 plus, the nurses and doctors say that they couldn't wait.
And also they saw the baby head is coming out.
So i gave birth it out.
Saw the baby, is a girl. So cute but they say is an abnormal baby.
the head and the spine is weird.
felt a relief when it is all out.
On 2 March 2011
The doctors and nurses say that it is all out and i can be discharged.
And i thought it was finally over but no.
On 3 March 2011
I found out that there's some baby flesh being passed out.
And my womb is sour and painful.
Called my parents and told them.
My cousin drive me to Douglas Clinic for woman to do a check.
And found out that there is still tai pan inside my womb.
So i need to be admitted to Mount Aliveria Hospital to do operation.
Hais, change into the gown and waited for the time to pass.
First time being pushed in to the ooperation theatre.
Was given anaethesia.
Woke up and went back to my room.
Was able to drink some milo and went to sleep.
Morning was given western food to eat. After that i was being sent back home.
Continue with the medicine.
Then after that found out that I have feng mo. Body is itchy, and legs too.
Went back to doctor lee again and was given cream and medicine.
So much problems in me and now i can't eat alot of things.
must wait after one month i then can eat.
GRR!!! FML
Was a dramatic story yeah?
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